In Galatians 5:1It is for freedom that Christ has set us free. Stand firm, then, and do not let yourselves be burdened again by a yoke of slavery.
Many Christians accept Jesus but do not fully embrace the freedom Jesus offers us. The door to the jail cell is open but we choose to stay in jail. We are in prison without bars.
Last week Jesus refined me through three different men. The first two gave me constructive feedback after speaking. I was thankful for their willingness to speak into my life. I was also grateful that a stronghold that has afflicted me for years through absence of father has been removed. In the past, I have received from other people and implemented feedback but not with the right heart. My pain from absence of father impacted my ability to healthily receive from authorities.
The third scenario involved an email I sent to a very respected person who has had a major influence on my development over the past two years. I sent what was perceived as an attempt to establish gatherings to impact Kingdom Leaders. Unfortunately, my email was not received in the same accord as my intentions.
The email was forwarded to another person who called me and provided me with the third instance of feedback from my week. As the person shared his heart with me I became aware of my lack of knowledge regarding the impacted person's status within the organization.
Immediately after the call, I wept at a level of emotion that I had not experienced in as long as I can remember as my one year old consoled me. My tears came from nowhere but God was revealing darkness in my heart. I am continuing to ask the Lord why I fully emoted.
Through my lack of knowledge in sending an email to the wrong person, I now understand an area of my heart that was afflicted. The Holy Spirit revealed that I have an unhealthy desire to be approved by men. The same stronghold drove me in the corporate world to climb the top of the ladder. I was trying to gain my dad's approval even though he died when I was a 9 year old boy. Lord heal my father wound.
God is changing my heart and he will use people and circumstances (even emails) to draw us close to Him. Ask God to give you eyes to see where you are bound and show you His heart for you. The Lord approves of you and that is what matters. Jesus wants us liberated! We can only lead people as far as we are free.
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Mon, November 16, 2009